The Sabotage

I wish I can always be positive and progress without making mistakes.  Unfortunately, my journey seems to have its set of pitfalls and roadblocks.  After my 20 lb mile marker, I know something triggered a sabotaging mechanism.  I've been really negligent these past couple days.  The main culprit is probably stress.  I've been meeting deadlines and staying at work later than usual lately.  When I'm up against deadlines and projects that are due, I tend to turn to food for comfort.  Late night eating fast food and junk food.  I know this is so bad, but I let myself do it because these deadlines seem to be more important than my health right now.  And the one thing that gets me less anxious and juiced up to keep going is comfort food.  I guess this is another revelation to one of the many dysfunctional relationships I have with food.  Or how food has supported my way of getting through life's crisis thus far.  I want to break this.  I know stress is part of living.  Everything seems to all be linked together.  Not only do I need to work on healthy eating and exercising, I should broaden my changes in stress and time management.

I have a long weekend coming up.  I pray I will embrace this opportunity to come back stronger and with more determination to really change my entire life around.